This entry was posted
on Wednesday, May 28th, 2008 at 10:59 am and is filed under All About Me.
You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed.
You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover, I’m a child, I’m a mother, I’m a sinner, I’m a saint, I do not feel ashamed. No, I’m not Alanis Morissette. I am Michelle D. Carter and this is my website. Today is May 28, 2008 and this is my first post.
I’m a bitch – I’m an evil hateful bitch. I am vindictive (although I’m trying not to be, so much anyway). Do not cross me, take advantage of me, or you will pay the price. Either through my hands or karma. Since I’m trying to be better, I’m hoping karma will get you. But sometimes, I still have to step in and help karma out.
I’m a lover – I love my husband. We’ve been married for 10 ½ years, together for 11 ½. I never thought I would find such a wonderful loving man with whom I share my life. My Mom quit school when she was 16, got married when she was 17, had me when she was 18 and divorced when she was 19. She didn’t get married because she was pregnant. She got married in August 1967 and I was born October 1968. She remarried when I was 12 ½ to an incredible man whom I consider my father. I always thought that’s how my life would be. I’d marry, have a kid, then divorced. The older I got, the more I thought I’d never find that special love. But at age 26 (almost 27), I met Tim. After two weeks, we were living together (yes, in sin). I was a month away from 29 when we wed. I am so lucky to have him – and he’s lucky to have me.
I’m a child – technically an only child. However, I have two half brothers, two step brothers and three step sisters. My biological father (will be referred to as “sperm donor” from here on out) remarried and had two boys. My step-father (will be referred to as “Dad” from here on out) had five children. I was the oldest of the whole bunch. I lived with my Mom, Dad and his five kids. More on that later.
I’m a mother – I have three children. My daughter, Alyssa, is 8 ½ and is quite the drama queen already (I know she gets it from me, but I will deny it as much as I can). I also have twin boys, Alex and Andy, who are 5. All three were pre-mature. Alyssa was 6 weeks early and spent 6 days in the hospital. My water broke around 3:00 in the morning. I was cussing myself out, here I was 31 years old and couldn’t control my bladder. Then it hit me. An hour or so later we were at the hospital. Tim is VERY big in surprises so we didn’t know she was a she until 9:28 that glorious evening on January 4th, 2000. Remember, she was 6 weeks early, so NO, we weren’t planning for a New Millennium baby. We didn’t want a birthday too close to Christmas, Valentine’s Day was the plan. Tim wanted three years between our kids, I wanted two. Obviously, we went with three. We debated whether we were even going to have another one. Life was just getting easier. We could pick up and go without too much to worry about. It took me three months to get pregnant with my daughter, so I went off the pill. The first freakin’ month I got pregnant. Holy shit! I had wanted a May birthday, however; my due date was April. What have I done?! I’m sicker than shit and went from “let’s see what happens” to “crap, I’m pregnant.” Around my fifth month, I started thinking, “another one around the house, I can handle it.” Then we go in for the sonogram. We take Alyssa so she can see her new sibling. Again, we didn’t want to know the sex. The technician scans my stomach. Tim says, “that’s a boy.” I have trouble making those pictures out, but I knew that was a penis. Then she says, “I have something to show you.” I thought if it’s anything bad, it would come from my doctor. So I looked at her and said, “there’s two.” “Yes, and when there’s two we look for three, but there’s only two.” I never heard a thing she said after that. The nurse said, “you didn’t know, no wonder your blood pressure was up.” Ya think?! I’m just adjusting to the fact I’m pregnant and now I’m having two babies!! Twins run in Tim’s family. Curse them! At my six week check-up, we find out that the boys are fraternal – that means there were two eggs out there that were fertilized. I am responsible for the boys. They were born 7 weeks early. Alex spent 3 weeks in the hospital, Andy, 4 weeks. The worst preemie in the world to be is a white male. All three are healthy now. You’d never know they were preemies. I am thankful for that.
I’m a sinner – oh man, I’m a sinner. I’ve stole, I had a long-term affair with a married man. I’ve… there are several things here that I’m sure you’ll learn about later.
I’m a saint – I’ve… well, I’ve… ok, maybe I’m not a saint. I am not ashamed of myself. Are there things I’m not proud of, sure! But I believe that you are the person you are because of the things you experience in life. And what doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger!!
May 28th, 2008 at 12:04 pm
Very brave of you to share your life story on the internet! Can’t say as though I have faced all my past demons to the point where I could share on-line! Best wishes…and thanks for sharing! Love you! Gaylene
May 28th, 2008 at 1:44 pm
You go girl!!!
May 28th, 2008 at 2:36 pm
Michelle Carter, you never seize to amaze me! =)
May 28th, 2008 at 2:38 pm
Too bad the song lyrics don’t include, “I’m a hero” or “I’m a role model” because that’s what you will always be to me! I’m very proud of you on so many levels and thrilled to have you as my cousin. Can’t wait to keep tabs on your life through you new blog. Love and miss you tons. Ry.
May 28th, 2008 at 6:16 pm
Michelle,
I love it and I love you too!! You’re an amazing person! I’m thankful to know you and am honored to be a fellow Bitch as well as your friend!
May 30th, 2008 at 8:06 am
Michelle,
Being your friend has made me a better person and I love you for all that you are and I am honored to call you my friend.
Alice
May 30th, 2008 at 9:06 am
I “ditto” what Alice said.
June 12th, 2008 at 8:55 pm
I added your site to Stumble
July 4th, 2008 at 10:27 pm
Sis,
I have read ALOT of your blog. I should be doing my homework but I can’t seem to stop clicking on the things that you write. Many of them see a deeper side of you that even living with you and being your sister for as long as we have I have not been able to see. I think this blog is an awesome place to have the people closest to you in your life be able to get even closer and for that I admire you. I don’t think I could be as open and complete as you have been in such an public forum.
I will definately keep checking in as time goes by.
Love Ya,
Angel